Trader X

why is it that I know exactly what I need to do but still can't do it???? All I have to do is just follow the rules and I won't get hurt.. or even if I did it would be less than my crazy off the hip shooting at the ES that I have been doing this week! It has to stop and stop now!!! Lost something like $600 today... why, because I didn't do what I know I can.

I'm an idiot. Pure and simple.

7:35 short at 8150, +1 pp and out at 82. +.5 total
+.5

8:35 long at 8375, +1pp, out and reversed at 8525, +1.5. + 2.5 total
+3

At this point I would have hit my goal but lets continue with the reversal.

9:35 short at 8525, +1pp, out at 86 -.75. +.25 total.
+3.25

10:20 long at 87, out and reverse at 8550. -3
+.25

short 8550, +1pp, out and reversed at 8325, +2.25. +3.25 total
+3.50

I should have taken a lunch break now.... but in case I didn't

11:45 Long 8325, pp +1 (took forever btw 12:45), out and reversed at 8325, +1pp,+0, +1total
+4.50

1:00 Short 8325, +1pp, out 8125, +1pp, +2. +3 total.
+7.50

2:10 long 8150, out 81, -1.
+6.50
probably would have stopped here but even if I didn't the last trade would have been +1 or so.

Instead I lost 12 points! How do I do this?

Tomorrow I am back to the steadfast grindstone....

I am now convinced that 100% of my problems are mental. Now I need to figure a way to reinforce that and solve my brain from shorting out as soon as the bell rings.

Trader X